Bad Habit and the Bad Character

Many times I've seen/observed that as soon as somebody talks of bad habits in a specific person, majority of the times the conclusion drawn is that the person is bad in nature/character.

However, I think characterizing a person as bad based on specific bad things he does is not the correct logic. A line should be drawn and it should be taken into account that person X may do certain bad things,emphasis on do, but he may not necessarily be a bad apple himself. Reverse analogy to this is how may times we may have seen somebody who didnt have any specific external bad habits as such but the mind/heart tells us that its not really worth corrupting and adulterating myself sticking around to what I see and hear from this particular being.

So if a person drinks like a phish, then yes he may have a bad habit but if a person drinks and then goes home and beats up his wife or become violent etc, then this is bad character. Alcohol is not the problem here, its the character problem which could be suppressed and comes out after drinking. The character no matter would anyways show up at different times and different instances even if the person is not consuming alcohol.

Same logic can be applied to so many other aspects in our daily lives where this distinction can be observed easily and that too even under extreme cases of drug or alcohol abuse for instance. Abuse of any subtance by anybody probably may not or may be some kind of wekkness in will or kind of psychological disorder, but cant be characterized as bad nature. Similarly take the case of lust. Lust as I know it is pure human nature. For whatever reasons, if somebody needs to satiate his lust for flesh then he may go to a brothel. Is the person bad. No, this act of going to brothel can be classified as good or bad depending on your position. But what is indeed sad is that somebody decides to force his lust on some unsuspecting and unwilling person through rape.

Real concern here however is not that there is no distinction between the bad habit and bad character, the concern really is that so much energy in general is spent on trying to classify and isolate people who need these certain kind of external stimulas for whatever reasons personal to them, that it becomes easy to forget that there are real beings who are inherently corrupt in their actions, in their minds and in their hearts and these are easily accepted as part of our society without any questions asked whether the same "rules" that have been made to perpetuate certain habits as "universally" bad, certain "rules" probably could not be made to make sure certain universal corruptness in character should not be tolerated as well.

Why Shravan was a Fuck

Posted: 29 May 2009
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It is not that I hold anything personal againsit Shravan. My only concern is that with whatever Shravan did, he set an example and unfortunate as it is, he was revered for the bad example that he set. But that is how society is, isnt it.

I dont know if I'll be able to express these thoughts as I have it in my mind, but what the heck.

What Shravan did, dedicating his whole life to live for others (his parents in this case) and for which he is revered for, is something I think we individuals in our present world already do. We all live oir lives for somebody else, and so to think that here is one guy who was so extraordinarily sacrificial, i dont agree.

To live our lives for smebody else other than ours, is probably the most easiest of things that an individual can do. What is most difficult and desirable is that an individual lives his life according to his own terms and his own wishes and to an extent according to his own whims and fancies.

So why do we think so greatly about Shravan. Keep in mind that my knowledge about him and his deeds may not be complete and it is very possible that that the state I'm in, I may be speaking with my own prejudices in mind and my own complexities... But didnt they say that this was myblog :)

OK. So coming to the point. The society thinks greatly about Shravan. Why, because it is thought that it is the sacrifices of sacrifices to dedicate your life for others.

Now I ask. Is it really so much about sacrificing their own lives because of which all these great men that we consider to be great are great.No, it was all in their self - interest to do actions that they did. These "great" individuals who have been documented by men..the key word here is men... went about their stuff only trying to live and achieve the permanent state of happiness that we all desperately seek in our lives. It was only these other men..the society..that put a mark on these individuals that they were great and that they were infact trying to better the society.So do we really want to believe what has been fed to us?

An irony isnt it, some men thought they dont want to follow the rules put up by other men and want to follow their own path, only to find that after a certain time, that specific path is now considered sacred and looked upon with great respect. But, whenever anybody does try to follow his own heart, the same men call him a joker with contempt in their souls.

Cominf back to shravan though, it is difficult for me to understand the state of mind he may have been to decide that he wants to spend the rest of his life doing pilgrimage for others. I would probably have respected him more had he thought it was in his own interest that he needs to the pilgrimage to seek/gain something/anything.

I dont even know if this entry has made any sense and I dont have much energy to read through it to see if it matches the title given to it. Best of luck to anybody who reads it.

Sorry Shravan.

The House Captain

Posted: 15 April 2009
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I was made the House Captain for Takshashila house in my 12th standard. It wasnt that i deserved to be or I was some kind of deemed leader , but purely for the fact that when the time came to choose a captain, all the other eligible guys and girls in my class were already occupied in some other extra-curriculars or academic stuff.

So there I was sitting alone in the last bench and spitting out paper missiles and suddenly I was called to say that I was being chosen for the House Captain role.Hell i didnt even know at that time what a captain or a leader meant really, but since my Chemistry teacher was being good to me for the first time in 2 years, I said ofcourse , can I expect some grace marks in my chem tests as well to complement this so I can finally pass. ;P

Then we won the Sports trophy for the year.Again, no tangible contribution from my side in terms of any medal tally or any outstanding performance in any sport. But the experience of being considered a leader did leave some impression on me then.

One of the most distinct memories I have is while interacting with my House juniors casually during school time and during any events that took place.

I had realised that, with just the pre-requisite amount of substance a leader needs to have, being a leader is more about inspiring confidence than anything else. I remember still when there was supposed to be a march - past of all the houses, leading all the 5th to 9th standard kids, on a hot and humid day, selling the idea of march-past as fun and something through which they could get back to their teachers :), it became possible to get these guys to get the Left-Right march slogan going in the loudest and most energetic manner as though we were all graduating from the NDA. heh.

Or for that matter, when a junior team had their inter-house handball championship, I was the only house captain present to cheer them and after having registered my presence there , you could see how the intensity of my team changed (not to forget that when this happens,generally opponents morale goes in downward direction).

Anyways, im reading now what I've written above and it seems to me as if i'm answering one of the essay questions of some B-school application, so ill stop here.

Had hoped that after my last entry, i wouldnt take another 12 months to come back, hope as time passes by and with more frequency, ill write better and the content will be more meaningful and not just an application essay. :)

Aila..aila..Keep Alive Blog

Posted: 8 April 2008
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Ooops...bloody long time since I last wrote anything.Not that I have anything to write now, thought atleast I'll try and keep the blog alive.

Well, last time I wrote was when I was in Brazil enjoying a Lesbian open air party in Brasilia. Before ending my trip in Brazil, spent an amazing one week in Rio.Amazing place and out of all the cities that I have visited till now, this was the city which reminded me most of Mumbai. From the favellas (slums) that you see as soon as you get out of the airport to the feeling you get while travelling on the road during wee hours of the morning.Heck,forget Rio,Brazil has been the only country of all the 12-13 countries that Ive been to where I feel Indians could assimilate in society faster that any other place if just the language barrier is overcome.

Anyways, that was Brazil which was good till it lasted. Then came Europe's turn (again).This time though I headed to Luxembourg for close to two months. Apart from celebrating the new year's eve there and walking past L.N.Mittals Arcelor-Mittal HQ (which was 5 mins walking distance from my hotel :P), not much time was spent exploring Luxembourg. Rather made most of my European trip by visiting Paris for a weekend. Since I was there during Christmas time, made a trip to meet a friend who's studying in Germany and together we went in search of Nirvana to Amsterdam for a weekend. :))

Amsterdam trip was especially good for one of the best experiences I had there. Staying in a cheap Hostel during the weekend bang in the red light district, came across some real interesting people.Seeing different individuals coming out and having a good time together: two French guys, an American, a Spanish guy, one from Ecuador, a few from Brazil.Each having a good time in his own way till the wee hours of morning, pretty good place for international bonding I would say. Learned to play BlackJack btw that day, and was pretty lucky at that too. :)

Ofcourse European trip came to an end as well and I headed to India thinking I'll finally get to spend sometime at home.And ofcourse, that wasnt to be. :))

Short stint to Taipei,Taiwan followed, within 2 weeks of my arrival in India, where for a week had to give training to a client. As with most people I've encountered everywhere, met some real nice people who made sure my stay was comfortable.Spent the weekend there walking and exploring the place with a map in hand and a daily train pass.A place very similar to Hong Kong I guess atleast with respect to the public transport system and some major commercial areas I went to.One interesting incident was when I was strolling in the 101 tower and came across my school captain from my childhood school Indian School,Kuwait.

And finally we come to my present destination. Within 3 days of coming back from Taiwan, was sitting again in a plane bound for Seattle,USA.Have been here for over two months now, including some good time spent in California with Parul during weekends one of which was spent playing Holi in a Hindu temple in San Jose. :)

Another 3 weeks to go before i head back home. Inshallah,the evil designs will fail to put me on a plane for atleast a month once I'm there. :))

So,thats it,an attempt to keep this blog from fading out. Hopefully it doesnt take me another 8 months to come back here and post something. And hopefully, the next post would be more meaningful that just where Ive been and what Ive done. :)

The Gay Association

Posted: 16 September 2007
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Note : No disrespect meant to gays or lesbians whatsoever..

Well Well.... A first time for me...Before anybody get's any ideas, a first time in the sense of witnessing a gay concert ...

After my dinner in the mall near my hotel , I noticed there was live music being played across the road.By the time i crossed the road , I saw two chicks making out near a car. As I was moving ahead, i had realised that this was nothing like a show I had been to before.The live music show was organised by the Lesbian Association in Brasilia.

By the time I was in the midst of crowd, along with holding on to my mobile and wallet, I had become pretty conscious of the fact that i could myself be a nice pick for somebody out there.Kept on shifting my place as soon as I saw a guy next to me . Realised how single women might feel walking alone in a deserted street with prying eyes..man..not good for them... (in New Delhi if u want a cue!!)

Anyways, that was just an initial reaction, after that as the music played on and as I saw the crowd having a good time with their own partners, I began to take in the experience as well.Started moving about the place. Saw girls with girls, guys with guys, guys with girls as well.

Maybe because in India the Gay community is not so open, could be a reason for me having a stereotypical image of guys being gays as totally feminine looking with all their hand movements and females having the boyish looks and all, but all those stereotypes i had in mind were gone after half an hour . Sure i did see some like i just mentioned, but for most of them, if you saw them on the streets, you wouldnt be able to recognise these people as having their sexual preferences towards their own kind. Personally, i felt dissapointed that some the good looking girls that i saw had a different taste..but also felt better that with a sizeable male population there, competition was less.. :)))

As I was heading back to my hotel after the show, couldnt help but think about what its said about every man's fantasy of two women together and himself in between and felt good that its a fantasy worth fantasizing about.

As for seeing the males getting up,close and personal to each other...well...its not my cup of tea, coffee,beer,whisky... :))

Adios!!

Thank you India!

Posted: 29 August 2007
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Today I let out a loud cheer as soon as I read the news of India defeating Syria 1-0 in the Nehru cup Football tournament. My Brasilian colleague who was sitting beside me asked me what happened.....When i told him about India's victory, he remarked that the floor we were in Brasil Telecom, a team made out of them would beat Syria anyday...Ofcourse I told him that very likely the children of the very same people could beat India any day....

But in a sports starved country like ours, to hear news such as these fills you with pride and excitement... very few better feelings than this, if any at all....

In a country like ours where more often than not you read in the papers only about caste/religion/region based hate crimes and discrimination...I trully trully believe that team sports such as these give us Indians a sense of belonging to one another and feel joy for the same pure reason...of being an Indian..nothing more..nothing less..

Man...can you believe how those 10,000 people must have felt when the Indian team led by Bhutia did a lap of honour flying our tricolor.......what those players must have felt seeing so much of support for them after all the painstaking mediocrity they have to suffer at the hands of incompetent admininstrators more often than not...

Not to forget the media which cannot help but dedicate 2-3 complete pages for Cricket..agreed Cricket is a popular sport...but you could atleast give all other sports and sportspersons encouragement from your side in their lonely struggle to play and win for our Country... ( i'm pretty sure not many would know who Sridhar is...our country's Badminton player)...I'm really sorry...but in the absence of any adequate support for these guys.. it becomes imperative that media keeps the administrators of these sports accountable to the people..and make sure our true stars of the country are inspired enough to give the best ...for the country....

Anyways....i can't but take a dig at media everytime i think of our Sports scenario...I just hope the win in Nehru Cup would have guaranteed a place in the First page of Times of India...Though i did read more than a few articles regarding the win....good good..thanks to u then..

So...coming back to the good news.....could this win lead to some winds of change for football players and football lovers in our country....specially with the pre - World Cup qualifiers coming up as well...

Just read a news that NBA players will make a tour of India as well to promote Basketball in our country....the overtly optimist that i would like to believe I'm ...i cannot but feel that indeed slowly and steadily India and her Indians will ramble on and start playing real games other then those we are really famous for.. (caste,corruption anyone!!!!)

I may or may not ever come to Brasil again...but when you are in the Mecca of football..it can only be a dream of yours that few years down the line...when an Indian visits Brasil ....one of the best discussions would be about how the two teams fared in the World Cup...and to stretch it a little at this point...how we beat them.. :))))

Chak De India...and thank you once again....!!!!

Bio fuels in India

Posted: June 10,2007
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Brazil does not import any oil...Can you believe it!!!.A country which is not in the top list of having oil reserves and which is a fast growing economy is absolutely insulated from the global oil market and the uncertain middle east which basically holds the entire world to ransom with its oil power and not to forget with their terrorists.

Reason for this...Brazil is a world leader in production of bio ethanol which is used either completely or mixed with gasoline for the automobile industry here that ive noticed...Its absolutely amazing..Ive read that Brazil makes its ethanol directly from sugarcane.I once went to the countryside in the Sao Paulo state on a roadtrip and observed pretty much an ocean of sugarcane cultivation..Wow..can you believe it still...no oil imports whatsoever!!!!!!!!

Now India imports close to three fourths of its oil, primarily ofcourse from the middle east and some african countries.Keep in mind, India is the worlds second biggest producer of sugar and having almost the same kind of sugarcane capacity as Brazil.I read this in a report just now before writing this..

Forunately for Brazil, they realised about the problem of oil dependency during the 70s and started on this project whereas we as a country are only now realising about this potential revolutionary environment friendly green fuel as people call it.

Some reports that i read have pointed out of the immense potential of bio fuels in India in terms of bioethanol, biodiesel and biogassified power and ofcourse the challenges and potential show stoppers as well.The governmnet fortunately has started taking steps and moving in the direction of making us energy sufficient one step at a time.

Not that i know all the technicalities involved as to how they will go about it , heck i dont even know all the technicalities of the software work that i do. :) . People should definetly google about this technology and the impact that it would have on our food grains, irrigation, forest land cover, alternate sources of biofuels ....makes for a damn good read...

All I can understand from all that i read, that there is a chance for us to replicate Brazil's model and maybe replicate it even better.All that is required is a strong will of the government in terms of framework and execution and that nobody should just sit on the experts recommendations of the opportunities and the barriers and act SWIFTLY...please!!!!!!!

Man...no oil imports......now that is a perfect dream for our country....or rather one of the perfect ones atleast..

P.S : for all the naysayers....one day in our country we will not have caste/religion based conflict..maybe class based based on economic status....now that would be another perfect dream wouldnt it be!!!!...

Ayodhya

Posted: 8th June 2007
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OK..there was Ram Mandir in Ayodhya.Then the Muslim rulers came , destroyed the temple and built a mosque.Centuries later the politically savvy Hindutva guys got interested and realized something is wrong and of course.. they bought the Masjid down

hmmmmm....interesting...now what is the situation...a freaking disputed land...

So what can be done...is there any solution at all...obviously no political party will ever be strong enough to have only a temple built there....that would basically mean the end of Muslim vote for them in the country's most populated state.I doubt if any party will even be able to just pander to the Muslims and build just the Mosque..end result...deadlock..

Now i dont know much about history of who is the right full owner of the place ( yes yes.. i do know some history and mythology and the Ramayana..if you get the drift)... and the political implications of what should be done by parties to achieve their votes...

But how about this....we could think about looking into the future...How about declaring the entire site as a national heritage site..and then go ahead and build a grand Hindu temple...a grand Mosque...a grand Gurudwara....a grand Buddhist temple... a beautiful Jain temple...a Church.. and any other religion that i may have missed which is present in this beautiful country of ours...

Just imagine..all these structures co-existing and becoming a hot tourist destination and generating revenues thereby improving the economic situation of the region and most importantly of the people by generating jobs.After all, na baap na bhaiya, na Ram na Allah..but sabse bada rupaiya..

Our media fortunately does give us good news from time to time and we know of situations and places in our country where Hindus and Muslims co-exist peacefully, celebrate each others festivals with equal vigor.If we know there are such communities , there is no reason why the same cant be replicated at Ayodhya, that too at a much larger scale.

For all the naysayers....yes Ram Bhagwan was born there and its a sacred Hindu pilgrimage site..yes you might say will any hard line Islamic country ever even think of allowing such kind of things in their holy lands...

But please...we are not these tyrant countries.We have a diversity unmatched anywhere in this world and we should be proud of it as Indians alike and think of exploring ideas and opportunities where the people of India as a whole can benefit uplifting many from poverty and building a sense of brotherhood amongst all the different religions, castes and creed and what not..

Lets be Indians first and last...and look for solutions and not just point and blame and lets not play the political game... what say!!

Ola to Brasil!!!!

Posted: 2nd April 2007
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Its been close to 4 months since i last wrote nything....

I've met some of the most amazing,interesting,genuine and kind people in this one short week that ive been in Brasil. My duration of stay here is going to be for about 3 months..inshallah ill say the same thing and with more vigour by the time my stay ends.

From a kind gentleman taking me to his house Barbeque party and making sure i feel comfortable amongst all the 20-30 ppl and telling me that im a part of his family to the guy i met in the mall who made sure i dont miss out on the "happening things" to my colleague who goes out of his way to show me around taking trouble and taking time out from his own schedule.wow!!

sure there maybe bad experiences along the way or not so good ppl.but the people like above reinforce the fact goodness still exists in this world torn away by people killing in the name of religion and creating divisions in society based on mindless notions (eg: caste if u want me to explicitly mention ..the damn thing...).When you have such pleasant encounters with total strangers..u know theres still hope for all of us..(unless global warming comes and screws all of us ..hehe.couldnt resist that..)

When you are away from your home and familiar faces,its pretty much a humbling experience to see total strangers taking so much trouble just to make sure ur alrite.And this is not just for the Brazilians,but for also people ive met in Greece,Netherlands,Brussels,Hong Kong and China.Would like to thank them all and hope someday i get to return the favour in my homeland.

would like to thank my company Roamware for sending me out here for a paid holiday for two weeks since no work is being done for now.Have actually forgot that ive come here for work.Till the time my work begins, lets enjoy the best hospitality that a lone foreigner could ever get.

Adios and Ate Logo ..see u soon in portuguese.. :)

A Tryst with Destiny

Posted: 14th November 2006
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Below you'll find a promise which was made on the day of our Independence.A promise that we as a nation have forgotten many times over.For the people of India,her administrators,her youth,her children....this ones for us all to remember and live by... Damn them all who say this is not possible and damn us if we dont make it happen!!!Jai Hind

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Long years ago we made a tryst with destiny, and now the time comes when we shall redeem our pledge, not wholly or in full measure, but very substantially. At the stroke of the midnight hour, when the world sleeps, India will awake to life and freedom. A moment comes, which comes but rarely in history, when we step out from the old to the new, when an age ends, and when the soul of a nation, long suppressed, finds utterance. It is fitting that at this solemn moment, we take the pledge of dedication to the service of India and her people and to the still larger cause of humanity.

At the dawn of history, India started on her unending quest, and trackless centuries are filled with her striving and grandeur of her success and failures. Through good and ill fortune alike, she has never lost sight of that quest, forgotten the ideals which gave her strength. We end today a period of misfortunes and India discovers herself again. The achievement we celebrate today is but a step, an opening of opportunity to the greater triumphs and achievements that await us. Are we brave enough and wise enough to grasp this opportunity and accept the challenge of the future?

Freedom and power bring responsibility. The responsibility rests upon this Assembly, a sovereign body representing the sovereign people of India. Before the birth of freedom, we have endured all the pains of labour and our hearts are heavy with the memory of this sorrrow. Some of those pains continue even now. Nevertheless, the past is over and it is the future that beckons us now.

That future is not one of ease or resting but of incessant striving so that we may fulfill the pledges we have so often taken and the one we shall take today. The service of India means, the service of the millions who suffer. It means the ending of poverty and ignorance and poverty and disease and inequality of opportunity. The ambition of the greatest men of our generation has been to wipe every tear from every eye. That may be beyond us, but as long as there are tears and suffering, so long our work will not be over.

And so we have to labour and to work, and to work hard, to give reality to our dreams. Those dreams are for India, but they are also for the world, for all the nations and peoples are too closely knit together today for any one of them to imagine that it can live apart. Peace is said to be indivisible, so is freedom, so is prosperity now, and also is disaster in this one world that can no longer be split into isolated fragments.

To the people of India, whose representatives we are, we make an appeal to join us with faith and confidence in this great adventure. This is no time for petty and destructive criticism, no time for ill-will or blaming others. We have to build the noble mansion of free India where all her children may dwell.

The appointed day has come -the day appointed by destiny- and India stands forth again, after long slumber and struggle, awake, vital, free and independent. The past clings on to us still in some measure and we have to do much before we redeem the pledges we have so often taken. Yet the turning-point is past, and history begins anew for us, the history which we shall live and act and others will write about.

It is a fateful moment for us in India, for all Asia and for the world. A new star rises, the star of freedom in the East, a new hope comes into being, a vision long cherished materializes. May the star never set and that hope never be betrayed!

We rejoice in that freedom, even though clouds surround us, and many of our people are sorrow-stricken and difficult problems encompass us. But freedom brings responsibilities and burdens and we have to face them in the spirit of a free and disciplined people.

On this day our first thoughts go to the architect of this freedom, the Father of our Nation, who, embodying the old spirit of India, held aloft the torch of freedom and lighted up the darkness that surrounded us. We have often been unworthy followers of his and have strayed from his message, but not only we but succeeding generations will remember this message and bear the imprint in their hearts of this great son of India, magnificent in his faith and strength and courage and humility. We shall never allow that torch of freedom to be blown out, however high the wind or stormy the tempest.

Our next thoughts must be of the unknown volunteers and soldiers of freedom who, without praise or reward, have served India even unto death.

We think also of our brothers and sisters who have been cut off from us by political boundaries and who unhappily cannot share at present in the freedom that has come. They are of us and will remain of us whatever may happen, and we shall be sharers in their good [or] ill fortune alike.

The future beckons to us. Whither do we go and what shall be our endeavour? To bring freedom and opportunity to the common man, to the peasants and workers of India; to fight and end poverty and ignorance and disease; to build up a prosperous, democratic and progressive nation, and to create social, economic and political institutions which will ensure justice and fullness of life to every man and woman.

We have hard work ahead. There is no resting for any one of us till we redeem our pledge in full, till we make all the people of India what destiny intended them to be. We are citizens of a great country on the verge of bold advance, and we have to live up to that high standard. All of us, to whatever religion we may belong, are equally the children of India with equal rights, privileges and obligations. We cannot encourage communalism or narrow-mindedness, for no nation can be great whose people are narrow in thought or in action.

To the nations and peoples of the world we send greetings and pledge ourselves to cooperate with them in furthering peace, freedom and democracy.

And to India, our much-loved motherland, the ancient, the eternal and the ever-new, we pay our reverent homage and we bind ourselves afresh to her service.

JAI HIND.

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World without strangers....but with Boundaries!!!!

Posted: 12th November 2006
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A few friends who read some of my stuff very rightly pointed out that on one hand I speak about Black/White/Brown skin all being same and in the same breath I have different opinion about Africa/West/India as a whole.

The point being made that if all humans are same then why draw a line at the countries border..Why be more concerned about your own country more than any other country..and the reason they give is also not very wrong ...after all, these are all man-made.

But in the true sense,is it really a contradiction!!!..I would tend not to think so.As part of the animal kingdom..and at the top of the chain especially intellectually..there cannot be absolutely any difference between the different kinds of people that we have.And I believe that we will one day reach that level when differences based on colour will no longer be there..My personal experience in Europe and now in Hong Kong tells me that people are inherently nice when it comes to dealing at a personal level..

But similar to other animals,like the different groups of Lion families in the same jungle,we do need to be conscious of the fact that you mind your own families business without interfering in someone's else lives.Just like we have a house and do need that space ... Surely nobody can argue that even this is not real,we are back to pre historic ages then all lying on the same tree...or rather roads now..

So,in the same sense you have a a concept known as Nations and States..and...Charity begins at home...and no better place to call home than India..what say!! Thats why i feel its no contradiction when I put my own family (read India)first before any other!!

Its an argument that this division of human animal at the granularity of national boundaries may go away in the future sometime...Yes maybe possible..but i know for sure its not going to happen before i hit the grave..And if at all it were to happen,it would require this currently imbalanced world to become a "perfect" utopia.. :)

Till then...cheer for and cheers to India!!!!

Who the fuck is God!!!!

Posted: 14th October 2006
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Well!!!!who the fuck really is god....Is he a hindu,muslim or a christian......my guess is....theres no such thing....there are only people....and then there are more people...

Dont know much about the primitive and the middle ages....maybe there were some assholes for all kinds of people and for all kinds of religions who preached something...did something else...

But what about our day and age....nowhere have i seen nybody who would take time to solve all the inequalities that are currently present and set things straight...All you have is another set of assholes praying and preaching about the supposed assholes who were there someday someway!!!!

Was there a god when the British raped and looted my country for centuries.Guess there god has run out of steam now.The west is pretty much fucked now.If not yet,they will be in sometime.Maybe its time for a Chinese god to take over.And the African god,ohh hell...he was made slave once by his counterparts..still hasnt recovered from the shock i guess.will he ever..

Will the real Indian god ever stand up????

So!!enough of crap.As i said....there are people and then there are more people..and there are all kinds of people (with all kinds of twisted notions in their minds)...

Fuck the world....theres only India..and people...get over it..theres no god whos going to take us out of our miseries.whether you are a christian,muslim,hindu or from any other religion from any corner of this beautiful land.The british took advantage of the same division that we had and so fuking unfortunate that we are still so fucking divided.....

Only when we as THE people remove all these crazy notions that a bearded guy is different from the one with the beads,only then will we ever come out of the pits that the British left us in,the same pit that we are still in and so happy being there that too...Only then will a beautiful India with its beautiful "one" people rise up to remove all that plagues us now.With the diversity we have, pretty much unmatched anywhere else,just imagine an example that will be set for the entire world to follow!!!

Ramzan mein Ram
Diwali mein Ali
Phir kyoon na jaaye done ek doosre ke galli

There is no God!!!

Basketball!!

Posted: 1st September 2006
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Today Greece beat US of A in the world basketball championships semi-final n Athens went crazy...

Ofcourse had to join in the celebrations..so bought a greek flag n roamed the streets with a colleague..an italian told me...international support always helps...lolz

hmmm....so my country doesnt play basketball...(losing 100-30 to china is not playing i suppose)

my country doesnt play many other sports too...we used to be world beaters in hockey once..but we all know where we stand in that too now

y!!!!not because cricket hogs all the limelite n only cricketers make money....thats not a good enough excuse...but because the sons of bitches in the sports ministry and handling sports affairs are loser politicians who are useful for nothing but the government wants to appease them or doesnt want to lose their support in the coalition.so what have we got...an unhappy minister who doesnt give a fuk abt the fact that 1/6th of the population of earth barely manages to win a bronze medal in the olympics or any other important sport events....

y is not realised that sports/games can unite a country in unimaginable ways,maybe second only to during wartime.That all the times we do hindu/muslim/sikh/christian gets forgotten during those sparingly few moments of individual/team brilliance n we feel proud that an Indian not Hindu GopiChand won Badminton Championship and an Indian not Christian Paes won the bronze medal at the olympics and an Indian not Muslim Sania Mirza gives a tough fight to the likes of William sisters.......

If only a few of the people could realise this and get real men and women to handle the sports affairs of our country n screw these loathable wimps who currently preside n think of our sports affairs as their personal fiefdom and talented sportspersons as their fiefs..

and not just these guys handling the current affairs,what about the media,for them its always more interesting to show a page 3 tramp being laid down or led away by some equally corrupt pimp politician or businessman instead of focussing on the budding talented youngsters who could be much helped by bringin to the sponsoring comunity's notice about their existence and highlighting their achievements no matter how small they may be in the "bigger scheme of things" ..You mite say that people get what they deserve...but whatever happened to responsible journalism!!

Really dont need a great vision or foresight to see the advantages of building a world class community of talented athletes n all.Jus have to look a lil east to see china or for that matter to a lil west to germany which hosted the fifa wc'06.Spotlight on the country, foreign money and what not.With the next olymipcs in china,its goin to be at the worlds centrestage showcasing its brilliant infrastructure whereas we'll be looking at ourselves thinking where did we miss something.Maybe times like when the hindu/muslim fanatics had their rendezvous in gujarat!!!when innocent lives were lost from both communities and when the rest of the country watched in shame and wept silently......

Two roads diverged!!!!

Posted: 15th August 2006
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what is it about this heart and the mind thing biddu!!!why is it that for a very long time now im getting different and totally contrasting reactions from these 2 damn things.

hmmm...having diffculty in how to go abt explainin it....ohh wht the hell man...lets give it a shot...if nothin else i know parul will always be there taking pity on me n appreciating it...son of a bitch...just cant help but drag parul in evrythin can u.....:)

ok ok...i dont know if there are many others who face this same situation like mine or not...and how strong that feeling is...but day in and day out i feel being torn away in 2 pieces because of my heart and my damn mind..when im feel like doing whats rite according to my heart,my mind screws me up..and when im doin whts rite according to my damn brains...my heart breaks me man!!!

because of mind im here today sitting in a freakin beautiful city called Athens making some obscene amount of money that many will say no 22yr old should make..because of my brains and the conditioning that has been done to it over the years...do the "rite" things...do things as they are suposed to be done...live or try to live a kind of life thats expected of me....also during this time i've somehow manged to get the gift of garb...generally i know what to say to whom and at what time..guess bullshittin comes naturally..wht say...

my brains tell me that ive finished my engg...now ive work-ex...ofcourse the next logical step is to do a gr8 pg from some excellent school...and on n on n on..dont need to explain that...every kid in the rite mind knows wht im talkin abt....the things which will make my parents proud..making me a big brother to be like n all...

but....wht abt my heart my friend...is it playing from the same choir sheet as my mind(our company md always says..).....fortunately or unfortunately it does not...not in the least bit..y does it tell me that wht my mind is tellin me is just close your eyes n forget tht ur country needs u not as a money making machine "contributin in his own small way to society" but tht ur country needs you to be in tht slums of mankhurd and dharavi to tell those small children and their families that a better life exists for each and evryone....and work towards acheving that dream of theirs and mine by being with them... which by the way should be one of the most fundamental rights of all...a rite to live a good life..

u mite say tht being born poor and deprived and lack of opportunites is pure luck and a game of chance...well ill be damned if tht is so...damn god shud not be allowed to write nybodys destiny..

to be fighting alongside the honest ppl in the administration who are being denied to do the job tht they dreamed of in the first place...to fight this corruption of minds that has been set upon us and eating us and making us hollow to the core....

so thts my everyday story...and ill tell u the truth now...the reason im in disarray is only my doing...i dont have the fuking balls rite now to listen to wht my heart says to me....the reasons are coz im jus an average guy without any special talents(i dont call bullshiting a talent which many believe to be one) or extraordinary brilliance....and im scared to my guts by the thought of leavin the cushions of money and career and society acceptance that comes with it...

but ill also tell u one more truth..and ill be damned agn if tht isnt a truth....my doctors say tht ive a bigger heart than usual....(although medically thts a fukin abnormality...)...but...but.. but....agn my gut tells me tht its not goin to be long before i stop listening to the bullshit my mind is givin me...and thats a promise i make to myself...and ill burn in hell otherwise....

and so the two roads always diverged and we'll see which one woz taken..

15th august!!!!nybody!!!

Posted: 14th August 2006
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hello my beloved lovely country......a very very happy independence day to u.......im just goin to write wht i always say when ur name comes up....

someday...yes sir!!!some day....there will be no contradictions....no prejudices...no hypocrisy....n this is the best ive evr come up with....someday when there no longer will be "mediocrity of mind" in our country and amongst our ppl....tht day we''ll be free and free we will be!!!!...

till then..ramble on my friend.....we'll (u n me and the likes) sure as hell rescue all of us oneday...

Jai Hind....

wudnt be nice if we didnt wish all the pakistanis out there a happy independence day too...we'r cousins and one day our leaders will understand tht too and we'll live in peace and most importantly the beautiful kashmir will rise again...doesnt matter whether in pakistan or in india...wht matters is people there should be allowed to "live"..dont think thts too much to ask of our governments.....

and to that we do...amen...inshallah...jai ram jiki....

Whats going on!!

Posted: 14th August 2006
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are we real,can somebody explain it,is this happening..n if it is..is it really worth it...well these are just one of the thousands of questions one asks himself when he his sitting alone in his apartment in a distant land away from the regular routine of his life...

well now tht the damn conscience did ask these questions and many more lets do some khoon ka khoon n paani ka paani here...

is there really something as love..love from parents,love from ur lover,friends...n for that matter happiness,fun,joy whtever else the fuck there is......really jus think abt it,jus coz u n me have been just plain lucky enough to have been born in a well to do family in india whose parents have provided very well all the "basic" needs...does it mean tht we are really worth that love and happiness...

becoz my guess is that u think of the above said things only when your stomach is full....but wht abt those whose stomach arent...every fuking time i get this thought that im a fuking nobody....im jus plain fukin lucky thts it....and everytime i get a little away from my loved ones...parents,friends,parul...

and to top it all,the mother fukin society calls it destiny to have been born in a well todo family jus so u can do ur little individual bit in making the world a better place...like hell!!carry on...goto ur grave with ur eyes closed tht u made a freakin difference to somebody by giving ur dirty underwears once in ur lifetime as a fukin charity...dnt think it does not include me..ohh im very much a part of this entire fukin illusion......... till date...

Another thing is in europe u see these black ppl trying so hard to get in from africa (source..cnn documentry)..that they risk their lives day in and day out n live in constant humiliation....(includes india too...so many bloody castes and religions n sub-castes n sub religions.....fukin crazy motherfuckers... one day somebody should abolish the farce of faith n religion...!!!**more later**)

whats freakin wrong with us man!!!these nations and states and boundaries....cant u n me just respect someone w/o looking at the skin color or his last name or his faith....jus respect someone because he has the same animal tag as you have..tht of a "human"...i seriously do believe we've lost it...somehow somewhere....

maybe if theres a god he'll be seein this too n sayin to himself tht as sure as hell he fucked up somwhere in givin us a little more brains than the rest of the pack....

or maybe its same same old story as every philosophy n every religion of the world...The ideology is good...the implementation is fucked....join the fukin gang...god "leader of the gang" biddu!!!

heyy...btw...im an implementation engg....nybody out there listening or interested in sponsoring me !!!!!!

blah-blah or maybe not!!!!

Posted: 13th August 2006
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Well....back again,didnt think i wud come back did u...

u know i never wrote before as i was scared ill start a thing such as this n then jus leave it...maybe im still apprehensive abt myself..but wht the hell man....not starting at all is as bad,if not worse,than startin and stopping...

well am still cultivating the habit to write,so a lot of crap will come out i guess...as has always been the case some mite say...

just wondering wht the shiv sena n the likes will react like when they come to europe n see couples making noise in trains while smooching and lesbian pairs having a good time in their own corner in the compartment.Well from what ive observed here,nobody gives a damn here...n shud they??

what is it and how do you explain it to my fellow indians....is it freedom of expression of individuals or is it exploitation of freedom and corruption of society..civilised or uncivilised.....moral or immoral....n who decides....

But this is not the main concern,the important thing is,does a country like mine where we have millions affected by poverty,illiteracy and what have u...do the administrators of our society should even be thinkin about this when there are people dying and living in inhuman condns.

So much of time,energy and wasteful resources are spent on saving our indian culture from our supposedly predatory western counterpart that real issues are put on the backfoot and forgotten.

Mr.Minister, please take up the issue of roads,infrastructure,hygiene,education,communal harmony and please forget abt all the other non-sensical things that preoccupy your mind now.Maybe once you have turned our country into a developed one,you can consider of saving us from the west!!!...

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Migrating from Yahoo 360

Yahoo decided to play with its 360 feature and as it turns out the new system they have in place seems a bit complex to me. Thought if I have to anyways get familiar to something totally new, might as well try out some other tool.

Since I havent been able to figure out how to import all my Yahoo 360 entries here, i am going to follow the good old copy paste method.

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